blackbutlergurl

well i cut meh hair!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!

and NO willow i do NOT look blad. thanks for asking.

ANYWAYS, i did it myself. yah ur probally thinking: OH WAIT WHAAAAAAAAAAAAT? but yah i did it myself and i look great.blah. anyways, im glad that my hair is shorter, bc now its easyer to handle. aLOT leasyer to handle.

does anyone remeber when i was in 5th grade and my hair use to be more wild than my attitude? NOT ANYMORE!!!! ha ha!!!! I WIN!

OH MEH GOSH I GOT 1,111 PAGE VEIWS!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!


and willow i know u have a lot more but I'm not popular so its a very big accomplishment for meh lol

the perfect life is in a little shack in ohio, in a small cornfield across from a pastor and his wife, who have recently moved. luckily his youth group has followed him, or at least some of it. the shack isn't much, but a kitchen, and 3 rooms for beds. the cable isn't set up and problaly won't be for a while. laura would be cooking in the kitchen, for the problem she is only one who can. breakfasts are short, and quick, for the group of misfits have to scurry over to the pastors house to be home schooled. laura would do it, except for the fact that she can't legally be a teacher yet. after school the group gets home. jack, starts working on his music and stuff in the house until nils banishes him to the field, for the complaint that its to noisy. it would be best thought, since kaley is in her and lauras room writing. she can't get a large pay until she finishes her book and types it up on the old computer. she has to take it over to pastors house to print in a few days when its done and send it into an editing company. nils is still applying for a job, hopefully one with a large pay. it needs to be enough to afford food for the group. calista,   would be managing food supply. more of a runner for the "family." she can get food, and keep a clean schedule. laura is more of a mother type girl, taking control of the group when needed. they need her, and she knows it. it could be stored away and used for a threat later. as night turns around, laura settles into bed, and kaley stays up at the desk. nils sneaks in under the bed, in fear of sleeping with jack, another boy. calista is in her own bedroom, drifting off to sleep, to the sound of animals outside the run down shack. kaley continues to write, until her pencil breaks, and she lets out a deep sigh, setting it down. she puts her stuff away, and crawls into bed and falls asleep.

even bought, everyone in the small house understands it will be hard, and that the pastor can't support them forever, they all have high hopes. the shack is perfect, and even though there is no indoor plumbing, and would probably cave in during a wind storm, its perfect. the perfect shack, for a perfect life.

so last night I'm on the phone with my friend shawn, who i have not talked to in forever. and i mean it got to the part where i was about to cry. so i was sitting on the floor of my friend shannons bedroom, when all of a sudden, she sits up, yells "SHUT UP ALREADY!" so she picks up a pillow and CHUCKS IT AT MY FACE. so over the phone all you can hear is * crumble crumble*. so shawn is just like:hey kaley are you ok? and so i say yah... i just got hit in the face with a pillow though. so then i hang up and crawl into bed, and start to fall asleep, when my phone lights up and reads: message from Laura. so i open it, and start clicking away on the  buttons talking to probably 3 different people. so in the morning, shannon was pissed cause i was up toting all night and she could hear me clicking at my keys. oh well...

i don't know what to do anymore. I'm getting bullied by people i don't know. even about my age... how is that possible? i don't even know what to do anymore. all i want is friends but now all i can do is sit behind a computer screen and cry... i can only cry... i don't know why so many people hate me... i don't know why. but i can't be strong anymore. i can't take it! EVERY DAY ITS THE SAME THING. where is god now? he doesn't help me. why? what did i do? why do i get so hurt without even trying... i just can't take it anymore... help... please...